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engracia
Shizumori Rin 静森・琳
an expert otaku
procrastinates on an hourly basis.
extremely boring and moody.
has dark and angsty thoughts about murdering the world.
lives, breathes, eats anything related to fashion.
music anchors her to sanity.
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Tuesday, November 3, 2009, 5:52 AM
Recently, I realised I finally know how it feels to care deeply for a friend. It's a little hard to describe, but basically I feel happy when she's happy, when she's off on a fangirl high, and when she's troubled or whatever, I feel an urge to make those problems go away, and feel really protective. And often I feel a sense of righteous anger even when the problem does not directly involve me.Haha, this is rather weird and fascinating at the same time. I guess a major reason why I haven't felt something like this before is because my close friends are rather..how should I say, restrained? For some reason, there was always a sense of having to keep our feelings in check. That is not to say that I don't love them, or enjoy their company. I guess this friend was the first one I truly opened up to, and showed all of my flaws, every single one of them, to. It's strange, considering that I've only known her for less than a year.
Haha, you know who you are. Thank God for you, even though I'm not particularly religious, and thank you for tolerating my flaws, and for making me realise that I have human emotions, even positive ones.
Now you know why Cheryl says I wasn't like that before you came haha. Ironically, perhaps you were the first one to be so real, despite the many personas (personae?) you take on. Haha.
Okay, let's end this mushy nonsense abruptly and go back to our work haha.